Wednesday, March 2, 2011

my heart

I truly believe my heart has begun to accept the fact that we will never have children.

I've found that, surprisingly, I've thought less and less about having a family...less and less about being pregnant...less and less about infertility. I'm just so over it all. 3 years of my life...devoted to it and wasted. Sickening.

I've also been visiting the Infertility message board that I frequented for the past two years (and by frequented I mean spent a ridiculous amount of time there) less and less. I just have no interest in it any more. Everyone there is getting pregnant except for me. Again, sickening.

I guess this all happened in a very different way than I had imagined it would..I really never thought I'd accept my fate..I figured I'd have to force myself and end up pretending. But it appears that may not be the case...


  1. I totally know where you are coming from, let me know if you need anything or just want to talk or vent. Big ((hugs))

  2. I think this is part of the healing. Good luck, girl.

  3. Lady friend, I am right there with ya. I struggle between frequenting to try and stay motivated with the backlash of not knowing anyone on there anymore!
    Hopefully the new board will help morale! :)
    Much love to you.