well hello, there..

Do I still have any readers out there? Yes, yes, I realize it has been ages. I just have nothing going on in regards to the trying to conceive front. Nada. Zilch.

We have been busy, though...The Coach's season is in full swing, first conference series this weekend. Currently they are 21-2 and 2-0 in the SEC :) They've had a wonderful, wonderful start to the season and I hope they keep it up! They have one more game this afternoon and then fly home. I hope to see him before midnight.

Other than the season, I've been swamped with work. I run an organization in our recruitment office...I employ current students that assist in the recruitment of prospective students. Right now is hiring time. This year I have 73 applicants..for 40 spots. Because my director is all "give everyone a second, third, fourth chance...just hire everyone!" I have to do phone interviews with all applicants. And then pretty much offer second round (in-person) interviews to everyone as well. So...in two weeks I'll be doing 73 interviews in a week. Ridic.

Oh and since our BFN I've really upped my work outs...running more and doing Zumba often and I've lost almost 20 pounds!

my heart

I truly believe my heart has begun to accept the fact that we will never have children.

I've found that, surprisingly, I've thought less and less about having a family...less and less about being pregnant...less and less about infertility. I'm just so over it all. 3 years of my life...devoted to it and wasted. Sickening.

I've also been visiting the Infertility message board that I frequented for the past two years (and by frequented I mean spent a ridiculous amount of time there) less and less. I just have no interest in it any more. Everyone there is getting pregnant except for me. Again, sickening.

I guess this all happened in a very different way than I had imagined it would..I really never thought I'd accept my fate..I figured I'd have to force myself and end up pretending. But it appears that may not be the case...

15-0!

The Coach's team is currently undefeated...15-0! Not only is that the best start in program history but they are also riding the longest win streak in program history. YAY!

The real test will come this weekend...the team is traveling out to Oklahoma to take on two highly ranked teams. Guess we will see what they are really made of come Friday, Saturday and Sunday.

I'm going out to Oklahoma on Thursday...The Coach's parents are able to make the drive down there much easier than they are able to come visit us here so they wanted me to meet up with them there. I've never been to Oklahoma before but I'm excited about the visit. The weather, on the other hand, looks a bit chilly...